Withdrawal

I am happier than I can remember being for a very long time but at the same time I am sad, lonely, lost, gutted, bereft, heart broken.

My boy visited for the weekend with a trip to a fet club planned for Sunday (Kage....well worth a visit if you are in or visiting the Manchester area) Saturday was spent just the two of us getting to know each other again. I have to say I love the way his body responds to me, I can almost see it opening up and revealing its inner core. Needless to say several hours of touching teasing and denying his cock left me dripping wet and desperate to cum myself  so after a hasty retreat to the bedroom his tongue was soon working its magic and two fabulous orgasms followed in quick succession before it was back to teasing him some more.

Sunday dawned another beautiful sunny day but I didnt mind missing the sunshine one little bit. We would be spending the afternoon and evening at Kage, a chance to dress up and socialise with likeminded kinksters and of course make use of the dungeon in the basement!!  My friend Miss Beth and her boy were coming with us making two very happy dommes and two rather nervous slaves!!! After paying our entrance  I gave the others a quick guided tour of the pool room and dungeon and pointed out the private rooms and glory holes. We settled at a table and got some soft drinks in and chatted for a while taking in the scenery and ogling some of the kinky outfits on display. There was a couple of stalls selling toys and I couldn't resist some new hitty things, j paled a little when he saw what I'd bought but I promised to be gentle......ish. My new toys sat on the table while we chatted and socialised for a while but the temptation was just to great so I told j to get himself ready for some play and invited Miss Beth and her boy to come and join us.

j was tied onto the St Andrews Cross and Miss Beth's boy was put in charge of the camera and told to snap away. I could feel j's nerves, not being the greatest pain slut I think he was worried he would disappoint.......he didnt, not in the slightest. I was so proud of him. Miss Beth and I tag teamed him with floggers crops and my new hitty toys and he managed to channel the pain into an endorphin body orgasm which was a beautiful sight to see and filled my heart with pride and when we finished I couldn't help but hold him tight in my arms.

Unfortunately time had marched on as it has a habit of doing when you're enjoying yourself and Miss Beth and her boy had to leave so j and I went for some aftercare in the plunge pool.

We had another lovely day together on Monday but it went far too fast and before I knew it the time for him to return home had arrived but before he left I managed to fit in another hour of teasing his cock to breaking point and two ruined orgasms. Just a little something for him to remember me by!!!

On Monday evening I offered him my collar permanently, He smiled and went to make some coffee, two minutes later he was back with tears in his eyes asking if I had really said what he thought he had heard. It took a while to sink in but he got there eventually, he is now my collared slave.

So, I took him to the train station this morning to catch his train back to Scotland and I sit here writing this blog with tears in my eyes and feeling like my right arm is missing.

Oh Happy Day

I thought it would be good to balance the sadness in my last post with some happiness, and today is a very happy day!!

I have two reasons to be happy, firstly the other day I spent the day shopping and having lunch with my friend Miss Beth and finally managed to aquire a pair of those special shoes I was talking about in my last post. And Oh My are they special!!! They fit like a glove and caress my feet to perfection, they are shiny and red and just to put them on is a special event. Needless to say I have had one or two "special events" with them over the last day or two!

We also browsed a few shops other than the shoe shops and I picked up a couple of nice outfits which I may wear to an event we ar going to on Sunday. While browsing I came across a little present for my slave j, I haven't told him what it is yet but I'm sure he will love it..........or maybe not!!

That brings me to my second reason to be happy, j is visiting again this weekend and we are attending our first event together for which I am sure his present will come in handy **grin** I am so looking forward to seeing him again and can't wait to get him locked into his chastity device again ready for some more teasing. I love the look of concentration on his face when he is trying desperately not to get erect and the look of resignation when he knows he is going to fail.

For those interested here is a picture of my new shoes

A Sad Day

My local town centre has an abundance of shoe shops (luckily for me!!). Most of them sell the everyday variety of shoes, you know the comfy ones you wear for a day out or walking the dogs however, there are three that sell the type of shoes that make your eyes shine, bring a smile to your lips and make you (well me) a little moist between the legs!!

Anyway there was a pair of shoes in one of the everyday shoe shops that had taken my eye. They were definately not everyday shoes, they were navy blue, pink and purple (sounds grotesque but they weren't) they were beautiful and definately caused a little moisture. So today, armed with my crisp £20 notes from yesterdays post, I took myself off to purchase these wonders of shoemaking technology (would that be a load of cobblers do you think lol) and that was when the first bit of sadness hit me. Those orgasmic shoes didnt go up to my size!!!! The assistant advised me to try the next size down as their sizes are supposed to be larger than average so I did. They fitted ok on my left foot but the toes on my right foot were uncomfortably squashed. I considered putting up with the pain for the sake of beauty but it was too much even for me so I put them back with a sad heart.

Never mind I thought I'll find something in one of the three other shops that sell special shoes, so off I went. The first one had turned into a bag shop overnight without warning!! the second......a newsagent and the third closed, empty and shuttered!!! I came home empty handed, heavy hearted and very sad.

Boys you need to treat your ladies to more beautiful shoes so these shops dont have to close down and I can remain moist!!

Financial

I received an email the other day asking if I had considered offering financial domination for those slaves too far away to serve in person. I do offer financial domination as I consider this an extention of the control I love to have over my slaves. However, I find that the finacial fetish has more than its fair share of timewasters and flakes so I wasn't holding any great hopes of this one being real. My hopes sank a little more when I received a message saying he had sent a tribute on Thursday which should arrive luchtime Friday......which of course it didnt!!

I wasn't able to pick up my post over the weekend so it was a lovely surprise this morning to find a card in my post box with instructions to pick up a parcel from the local depot and, after signing for it, discovering lots of crisp new £20 notes inside.

My faith in financial slaves has been restored.......somewhat!!!!

Im off now to buy myself something nice.

And So It Begins

So new boy came today for his first training session and I have to say I was very pleased with his manners and willingness. His first instruction was that while he was in my apartment he would remain on his knees unless told otherwise, he looked a bit startled but complied.

He was very nervous so like most newbies first port of call was the loo!! Once in the dungeon he was ordered to strip and we did a bit of training on his positions. I showed him how I wanted him to kneel and he discovered that his knees will spread much further than he thought they would. I sent him out of the room and told him to come back in and present himself properly, it took maybe four or five times before he did it to my satisfaction but he managed it eventually. Next he was dressed in collar and cuffs and a set of bondage mitts and then tied to the frame for a workout with my floggers. I was trying to guage what level of play he had done before so started gently and built it up to medium stregnth using three different weights of flogger. Once he warmed up his reactions were quite pleasing so I dropped one or two heavy blows in just for fun.

Next it was onto the spanking bench and the paddles and canes came out to play, he was still apprehensive and his gym trained butt was clenching giving the perfect target so whats a girl to do faced with that haha but I was very restrained and only left a few stripes on his backside!! I decided to give the straps an airing aswell so out came the studded one which made a lovely diamond pattern on his skin and then the chain belt, he wasn't too keen on that one though!

I transferred him onto the table and tied him down pretty tight, he certainly wasn't going anywhere. Out came the cbt sensation toys, lots of pointy, pokey, scratchy things to prod him with, it was at this point I decided to change his name to Mary Ann! At one point he was flinching before I even touched him!! Wonderfull what the mind can do.

All in all I got a pretty good idea about what he can and cant take so it was a productive session and something to build on for next time. Sadly I ran out of time before I got to try out my new violet wand but theres always next time.

New Boy on the Block

So I had an email last week from a boy who wanted some training to explore his submissive side. He is married and has experimented mildly with his wife but it seems the kink is embedded deeper in him than his wife so with her blessing he sought me out for some "extra" training.

He came for an interview last week and I found him to be respectful and serious about exploring this lifestyle so I agreed to begin training him and see where it led to. He comes tomorrow for his first session and all sorts of nasty things are going through my mind!! However, its his first session so I suppose I should be a little gentle on him.....to start with at least.

My new violet wand arrived today so all being well that may get a trial run (well a girl has to try out new toys doesn't she) I received a text the other day to say he was happy to receive marks so the floggers and canes will probably get an airing aswell and of course there will be rope and restraints. I think I better finish this blog before I get carried away and decide to use every toy in my dungeon.......evil grin!!!