Tuesday, 26 June 2012

Broken Promises and Healing the Rifts

Lots has happened since I last wrote in here, some good, some bad. Im not normally a negative blogger but I want to get the bad bits off my chest so you lucky readers will have to bear the brunt.

Last week my boy was at a therapy centre for ex servicemen suffering with mental health problems (I've written before about his PTSD) He was doing well and keeping in contact when he could (the phone and internet signal was awful!!) However on Thursday I received a message from an ex mistress of his with whom I have had a previous "incident" she apologises for being the bearer of bad news and proceded to send me screen shots of several conversations she has had with j over the previous 2 weeks. Needless to say they were pretty damning for him and pretty heartbreaking for me. The worst one was a picture he sent after she asked him to wank for her with his cock lying in a big pool of cum. He was at this point supposed to be denied orgasms and on the honour system of chastity. This was the first broken promise!!

He was due to visit me when he was discharged from the centre on the Sunday so over the next few days I skirted round the subject and dropped a few hints giving plenty of opportunity for him to come clean and tell me the truth. I told him again and again how important honesty was to me and to any relationship I was in but he still refused to acknowlege any wrong doing, and so I put into action my plan for revenge. Any man who could lie to me so easily did not deserve my love or my mercy!

I told him I had a welcome home surprise waiting for him and boy did I!! I teased him for days about it getting him more and more excited but refusing to say what it was. So dear readers "What was it?" I hear you ask.

I took him straight to my chambers rather than going home first. I tied him to the bed, smiled and told him to wait for me. I then went into the other room where he had left his clothes and rifled through until I found his phone.....bugger she must have told him what she had sent to me as he had deleted all conversations with her. No matter I had copied everything she had sent and had it all ready on my laptop to read to him but first I gave him one more chance to come clean. He didn't take it.

Starting from the top I began reading making sure I emphasised all the hahaha's and lol's so that he knew just how funny it was to cheat on me. He begged me to stop, swore he was sorry and admitted he'd made a huge mistake but as I told him I had had to read it all so the least he could do was listen to it. This was when he discovered how strong my bed tie was lol no amount of squirming or struggling could set him free.

Eventually he broke down and told me the whole story. No need to go into it here but suffice to say the "lady" in question was not quite the good samaritan she had painted herself initially and had taken a fair bit of advantage of his delicate state of mind.

So eventually I was left with a decision to make.....who to believe....do I keep him around or do I pack him off back to the station and never see him again. In order for any possibility of him staying I had to hear him tell her he wanted no more to do with her. However, before I could ask him to do this he grabbed his phone and did just that which took the wind out of my sails somewhat lol. There followed a couple of hours of soul searching and talking and crying....from both sides.

The outcome was a last chance to prove his honesty and loyalty and to make up for the broken heart he had caused me. I have to say my trust took a severe blow and will take some time to be restored. The "lady" in question has reverted to insults and mud slinging and has tried on a few occasions to contact j again but so far he has blocked her where he can and ignored here where he cant. I know from his past experiences with this woman that this has taken great resolve from him, for some reason she scares him into compliance. She has mental health issues of her own and appears to be very volatile and unstable. My big concern now is that when he returns home and is alone again she will try to wriggle her way back in, I hope I can give him the stregnth to stand up to her.

j is by no means forgiven yet and I have removed his collar until such time that I feel he deserves it again but he is working hard to restore my faith in him.

Friday, 15 June 2012

Catching Up

Ive been a little busy lately and have continued to neglect my bog so here is a post about what Ive been up to.

I spent a few days up in Scotland with my boy for his birthday and whilst I was there decided to investigate his secret desires for public humiliation. Starting slowly he was told to address everyone he spoke to as Ma'am or Sir which as I was the only person around at the time he thought was going to be easy. Little did he know I had a little shopping trip planned!! First stop was the local supermarket where I nudged him up to the checkout with a quick reminder in his ear and he managed to mumble a quick thank you Mm as he paid. Of course this wasn't nearly good enough so I upped the stakes and instructed him to wish each person we past on the street a "Good morning Ma'am/Sir and to make it clearly audible. Bless him he did this but he got redder and redder each time. Im pretty sure most people thought he was just being well mannered but he knew why he was doing it and of course I kept reminding him why he was doing it which made matters worse for him.

The following day we went to a country park where there where a few jubilee celebrations going on, we had a stroll around and then saw a quiet wooded area to investigate. We were completely alone so I instructed him to drop his pants and hug a tree, as we were alone he had no excuse not to but I could see the thought "what if" cross his mind. The mental squirming was a delight to watch!!

As he is still off work we decided he should come back home with me when it was time for me to return so there followed a week of more teasing and torment for him to make up for the orgasm he was allowed on his birthday. He was even used for some forced bi sessions in my chambers during the week so by the time he was set to return to Scotland he had very full balls again. He is now 11 days denied and will remain so for the foreseeable future. I love to watch the concentration on his face when he is inside me giving me pleasure but unable to take any for himself. I also admire his stregnth of will as so far there have been no accidental slip ups no matter how hard I tease!!


So I bit the bullet recently and finally joined the social networking revolution. Yes I joined Twitter!! I did join a few years ago but my skills with technology are practically zero so it was pretty unsuccessful, however, with the help (constantly) of my slave j I have joined again and now seem to be understanding it a bit more.

I have come across some interesting people while on there along with the usual crazies lol but all in all it has been a fun experience so far. I think I will keep it up so anyone wishing to follow me will find me at @misstillysue. Hope to see you there.