Friday, 27 January 2012

Chastity - My view

I read posts everyday on various forms of the chastity lifestyle and it seems there are as many ways to live it as there are people actually living it, so I thought I would give a little run down on what chastity means to me.

Firstly to me chastity involves wearing a device. Yes I know they can be uncomfortable, they can get in the way sometimes, they take a bit of getting used to etc but I want my boys to go through that for ME. Chastity is something they do for ME not because it gives them a kick. The whole idea of the honour system does little or nothing for me I dont want you to not touch your cock because you are in control of your urges, I want you to not touch your cock because its mine and you are unable to. Just knowing that my boys are reminded of me everytime they walk or sit and feel the device between their legs or when they go for a pee and have to sit or take exercise and it pulls a bit, that is what turns me on. I want them to know and be reminded all day every day that it is MY cock and I control it.

Secondly, I read a lot of post from subs proudly claiming so many hundred days in their device and I think poor keyholder not having a cock to play with all that time. When I own a cock I want access to it whenever I feel like. That may be daily or it may be weekly or it may not be for a month or so, but when I have a toy I want to play with it regularly. Chastity to me means that my cocks are available when I want them its not a marathon to see how long you can survive without wanking, once I have a cock locked the only person who will ever wank it again is me.

I never decide in advance how long the device will stay on, how do I know that in seven days I will feel like playing with it? Also I want my boys to wonder if today is the day.......or not!! I like surprises. I like to tease. I like to deny. I like to be in control of when or if my boys get to orgasm.

Wednesday, 25 January 2012

9 Days

J is a boy I am considering taking on as my personal slave and if all goes well a life partner. At the moment we are long distance but he is willing to relocate to be by my side.

We have been talking and texting for only a short time and normally I dont bother myself with boys who are more than an hours travelling time from me but I have to say there is something a little special about J.

Anyway, today he sent me a text with a picture of a train ticket and in 9 days he will be here at my feet and at my mercy!!

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

Hello and Welcome

Welcome to my blog, as this is my first post here and anywhere else for quite some time I thought I would introduce myself and what I am all about.

I am a mature dominant woman and although I discovered BDSM fairly late in life, I realise that I have been dominant for as long as I can remember. My first memories of dominant behaviour where back in junior school, I would walk home with a boy in my class and took great delight in assuming the Mother role. By the time that boy reached his bus stop his backside and the back of his legs were pink to say the least!! That was my first experience of spanking but definitely not my last. Back then I cant say it was a sexual experience but the power rush was exhilarating and the feeling of total control was definitely habit forming!!

These days the desire for control is just as strong or maybe even stronger, even the thought of my boys kneeling in front of me giving that control to me to do with as I will makes me wet. It’s a feeling like no other. My sadistic side has matured with age but I still love to give a good over the knee spanking and slapping a boys legs leaves a warm glow. Inflicting pain on a willing boy is one of the joys of my life and my imagination is always running wild with new and ever more evil ways to do it.

Humiliation is something I found harder to come to terms with (see I have a soft side too!), however, the more I experimented with it the more pleasure I got from it, and as I recognised the need and indeed pleasure my victims received from it the more comfortable I got with it. I now spend a fair bit of time dreaming up new ways to humiliate my boys many of which no doubt will be recorded in this blog.

Another of my great joys is chastity and for me chastity has to entail wearing a device. I know that some submissives prefer the honour system but it is the enforcing of chastity which floats my boat. As I see it the honour system takes that control away from me and places it with the chastee and that is not what I am after at all. I want to be in control at all times.

About 3 and a bit years ago I decided to add professional dominatrix services to my ever expanding repertoire. I now have a dedicated play room in a lovely private apartment from which to work. I like to think I give value for the tribute I charge and will work with my boys to ensure their fantasies are fulfilled (so long as they are fulfilling mine first of course!!).